Car Crash.

I know it has again been awhile but soon I will be able to post more frequently. Last official 2nd year university assignment is handed in, so it's mainly just work (a lot) taking up my time.

I was on my way to work when my tire blew out today. This terrified me. Before anyone says I'm a sook or a typical girl I would like to explain why.

First off my best friend died in a car accident a few years ago. It was the hardest thing to ever happen and even though it was over three years ago now it still hurts... and everyday it feels like the pain gets worse not better. Not only did this rob me of a friend and the world of the most amazing person to ever live but it made me scared. She always made me feel protected because I could count on her. It made me scared of cars, especially driving cars, knowing how easy it could happen, and how one little thing could change EVERYTHING. I put of my licence for as long as possible and try to avoid driving, which is made hard but work or university everyday so I have to drive everyday.

Today itself would've been scary for anyone though. It was an 80km road, 4 lanes, school traffic, so a lot of cars going very fast. I was going around a bend when I heard a loud pop, then in my side view mirror I see my hubcap flying through the air onto the opposite side of the road. At first I thought I was going to make another car crash, which may have scared me the most, until suddenly my car swerved out of my control as the tire got caught on the road. In that moment I felt so sure that I wasn't going home that night, instead I was going to be joining my friend. I could only think, did this pass through her mind in the second before it happened? Somehow my instincts just took over and I slowed, not to make the cars behind me hit me though. A slight gap in the road and I dashed to the side. My tire completely shredded.

I have to thank all the cars around me that first saw the hubcap fly as a warning sign and knew themselves what was about to happen to my car. I will no longer see every other driver as an idiot, I now have a huge respect for the way every car helped me out today.

I would also like to say that I disagree with people that say it all happened to fast. I get in some situations, way more extreme than mine, that nothing can prevent the crash but I'm pretty sure that it's not because it happened too fast. Those few seconds really did give me time to go through everything, enough time to be scared, think, mourn. That instant was as long as a life time to me.

To cap the day/ night I called my Mum, obviously close to hysterical, asking her to come give me a lift to work (work was the last thing I wanted but I need the money and it was supposed to be a short shift tonight anyway). She gets there and she is mad! I really needed someone in that moment to talk to about what happened but instead I had become this burden that had inconvenienced her! I would have given anything to have my friend back to talk to at the moment. I even thought maybe the car should have crashed.

To emotionally exhausted, mad at my Mum, missing my friend, and car on the side of the road, I get to work and my friends sister is there! I almost died, right on the spot. I have no idea how I managed to laugh and smile through my whole shift but I did. And straight away I just wanted a bath and sleep, maybe at the same time? But my Mum and Step dad had a different idea. Yell some more for my inconvenience and burden. Then I had to drive my car home (luckily the tire was fixed, but I was still so shakey). I'm thinking now that I may never want to drive again... and looking at a photo... the loss just hurts everyday... she was a great person...

RIP Rochelle Beloe... best friend a person could ever dream about...

Been a while.

Ok I know it's been like a week... or two... or more... since I last posted but as you can tell by the posts from then I was getting pretty busy. On the plus side Uni is almost done! One my assignment, my final script, then it's time for holidays, and recreational scripts :D, such as my friend Claudia's script as she has demanded her own short story for Christmas.

More amazing news! Me and my Mum brought my NEW DSLR CAMERA on the weekend! It is amazing! and considering what camera it is, we got it for really cheap, AND it came with a WHOLE bunch of extras. Such as happy feeling. Just got to wait until my Birthday... and maybe even Christmas... until I get it... because although I'm paying for it mostly, mum is putting some towards it for a present. Which I've gotta say is an amazing present! I would also like to add that it is the one BETH RIESGRAF suggested, because really, a photographer like that says this camera is good, then the camera is gonna be good.

I would also like to say that I did surprisingly good in my tests and assignments, considering I had NO time and was totally stressing about it all. So it's been a really good week. Except for my sister anyway. But she is moody at the moment with exams and all coming up.

So all and all I'm very happy. But still busy with work, every single day... although work isn't that bad, just wishing for some more time off and all. I just figured I would post something today while I had a few seconds, until I get a bit freer to actually start posting again... So people enjoy holidays and whatever anyone is doing at the moment and until next time keep hoping that Olivia finds a way to cross back over (was I the only one sitting there cheering for her to just stay when she crossed for those few seconds, and Ella on the phone...ohhh).

Me.

Ok I said I was going to post about me and this is it. I am 18, born December 1st 1991 in Brisbane. Grew up my first few years in London St, Eight Mile Plains, until I moved down to the Gold Coast and to Nerang, then later the Hinterlands. Primary school was Gilston, high school was King's, and University is Griffith. I learnt very early that I had a talent for writing, mainly because by grade seven I was reading writing assignments out to the class, and being told that I seemed to have a gift for writing. During high school I played with teaching, journalism and just plain writing. It was only university when I actually realised that I could mix my two favourite things (writing and television shows) and successfully (hopefully) make a living as a television screenwriter! That really is the dream job isn't it?

I tend to watch so many shows that almost every week I have a new favourite show, but occasionally (such as Leverage, lasting as my favourite ever since I first saw it) shows last for longer, like a few months, or even come back, go away and come back again (like Buffy).

I am currently second year at University, studying Journalism and majoring in Film, writing, and public relations (because at the time I was a little unsure about where I was going in life, although I know now). I've got some really great lectures who really get involved and help me out, don't know what I would do without their constant help and the support of teachers throughout my education. So here's a shout out in honour of world teacher's day which is around this time of the year.

I am also working at Ashmore McDonalds (after working at Nerang McDonalds from age 14, only leaving to work at Civic Video for a year). It's actually really fun most days. The people I work with are great and I feel blessed to have awesam people around me both at work and at university.

There are many more tidbits about me that I want to share but I really need to go (like 5 minutes ago).
Until the next time.

Beth Riesgraf.

I'm about to leave for work but I just had to share this. I am completely happy (and have completely stopped stressing over my test and assignment due tomorrow) because THE BETH RIESGRAF replied to a tweet a posted. Granted it was about her, but it was actually aimed at my sister and completely surprised me which just makes it all that much more awesam. Anyway off to work, but I shall return once work and study is done late tonight.

Busy.

I have realised that I haven't actually written a post about who I am. And guess what this isn't the post. I will be do, but probably not until the weekend. I have an assignment to do tonight, then study for tomorrow (after work, so not until late, which isn't great), then everything is due on Friday so I should have time off between work shifts on the weekend. *crosses fingers*.

Tonight I would like to apologise to the hundreds of trees that I have killed this week in writing my various novel-sized assignments. Moment of silence. Moment over.

A little tidbit I will share about myself in this post is that I, like so many kids now-days, have what can only be best described as a 'birthday curse' (using Pacey, Dawson's Creek as a reference, although luckily I've never been mauled by  dog). I can not remember having a good day on my birthday as far as my memory goes back (i say this because I can't really say if I had fun the day I was born or not, and I am SO glad I don't remember that birthday). So with my birthday fast approaching this year I have become determined to enjoy it! Instead of any form of celebration (which always leads to name-calling from my not-so-loving family) I have decided to do what I love most all day! I mean I always enjoy it so it should mean I would enjoy a day of it. So on December 1st 2010 me and my sister shall set up a tv, pillows, blankets, snacks, and zoom through a select few episodes from a select few television shows, from waking until sleeping. To anyone else this may seem lame (and slightly lonely) but to me it's a great change of pace, a whole day off everything, all the drama, stress, work, university, writing. One good day... Or should I try not to jinx it?

Christian Kane.

Two Hours. After weeks of staring at a blank page it was the night before it was due and synching my Ipod I decided to play some good ol' Christian Kane, only to suddenly focus and knock my essay out in just two hours. Maybe I was wrong to never like country music because it seems to be calming? Or maybe it's just him that's awesam... you never know. The only issue is I still have the Friday test and investigative journalism story left...but I'm feeling a bit better today after getting a good grade on a test I was sure I had flunked (after not attending any classes, reading any notes, or even remotely studying). So maybe that gives me a little hope that my 'special talent' of little work= good grades is still slightly intact. DO NOT take this to mean I'm changing my advice about the last day cram being bad! Still is. Always will be.

Once I finish these two assessments though it's time to write the pilot script for screenwriting (as well as one more assignment, but thats not due until next week so I've got the time). Maybe I will post segments online...maybe I won't.

More happy news. I shall be replacing my fishy's on the weekend (the ones that my sister unintentionally feed to my turtle (yeah sure family place the fish in the turtle tank, we're all vegetarians here, not!)). So far I've picked Sharker for the name of the best looking fish I can find (as all Leverage fans know Sharker brands people with a rod that stays hot because of her core temperature...haha classic Beth Riesgraf). I'm asking friends for suggestions. So far there's naming the others Hardison, Nate, and Eliot to see which Sharker choses but I don't think I'm going to do that, purely because any paring between the pair would be upsetting.

*SPOILERS Fringe*
Today I would like to point out to the fringe creators just how much the season 2 episode 'Jacksonville' makes me want to cry. I mean we're on the edge of our seats for Olivia and Peter to finally get that allusive kiss only to have the (very obvious) revelation of Peter being from the other side (which was so badly hinted at it surprised no one, which isn't necessarily a bad thing) which of course Olivia promises Walter not to tell Peter leaving her feeling like crud and nothing to happen between the two! And as we all know when something finally happens it's not even 'our' Olivia... Flashbacks to Alias anyone??

Focus.

I have just finished work and should now really be working on my assignment which is actually due tomorrow and which I have barely started but for some reason I really REALLY can't. Normally I'd have a reason like Fringe or Leverage but the thing is I'm pretty much up to date on my television at the moment so really it's just me. Haven't you ever just been in a mood where you feel like everything you write sucks? Well I'm pretty sure I'm in that mood right now. Honestly I haven't been doing great at university this semester...actually I've been doing bad. I've pushed my usual deadline tendencies to the absolute limit and I'm going very close to failing but most of me doesn't care. Really I'm not learning much that will go towards my future. The only thing that really will is watching the television, studying the shows and eventually moving to America.

Something did give me hope today: Anna Torv. Like me she grew up in the Gold Coast Hinterland and look where she is now! But it really just proves that to be anything it's gotta be America..which kinda sucks for people not from there.

Anyway I should put my head down and start writing because if I don't do this assignment now (ignoring the fail) I won't be able to focus on my script when that comes to be due... but until tomorrow keep in mind that you should always focus and if you ever see yourself getting into the horrible habit of the adrenaline rush causing last day study then snap out of it! There is nothing good down that road! Trust me. I wish I could study everyday all day like my sister but I've been like this since Primary School. I guess BAD habits are just too hard to break.


*SPOILERS (fringe)*
Oh and Fringe: please send Olivia back! It's bad enough that Boliva (Altivia, whatever) and Peter slept together but we need Olivia to return! Miss her and Walter's banter (you can tell he knows something just by the way he always looks at Bolivia now).